Friday, January 13, 2012


Sunday, January 15th, will be one year since our precious Caleb left this earth and opened his beautiful brown eyes to see the face of our Lord in Heaven.  What was the worst day I have ever experienced here in my life, was the most wonderful day of his.  His life, his spirit, his love will carry me through the rest of my life- determined to be the kind and patient person that he taught me to be. 

What started out as a book about raising children with special needs in 2008, changed to a journey through his life- after he passed away Jan. 15th, 2011.  The journey was overwhelming for me to even write at times...I would have to stop, and regroup and then start again.  Writing about REAL life isn't easy.  But it was therapy for me.  I realized while writing, that we learned many things from Caleb, that we'd never have learned so early on in our lives had he not been with us.

I am amazed at how he exhibited all the fruits of the spirit:  love, joy, peace, longsuffering, gentleness, goodness, faith, meekness, temperance- at 9 years old.  Especially since he'd suffered for years, been in pain, was unable to communicate with words, lost numerous abilities...things that normally would drive a person into despair, depression, and turn them away from Faith. 

Grief is something we all experience, or will in this lifetime.  How to live with grief is something we learned to do when Caleb lost ability, we grieved a little at a time.  When faced with losing him forever, I knew this grief would continue the  rest of my life, but rather than crippling us, it has made us as a family, more determined- to LIVE.

God blessed us for 9 years, with the most precious child, and now, his story, and the journey of our family with him is now able to be shared with the world. 

My book, Giving Him Back To God is available at in paperback and Kindle.  I hope that you read it and learn that no matter where you are on life's journey, no matter what struggles you face, there is a way- to Be The Blessing.

Love to all of you,
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1 comment:

  1. I have worked with children for 8 years and have never met a more precious child than Caleb or a more loving mother than Beth. As a friend I have learned so much from the love shared between Caleb and his beautiful family. As one of his personal caregivers, Caleb brought so much meaning and understanding to my life. He had a way of bringing out the best in you no matter what kind of day you were having. He was strong and brave despite all of the physical obstacles he faced. He taught me to live in the moment and appreciate all of the people who have blessed my life. Beth is also strong, I believe Caleb taught her this too! She never gave up on seeking the best for his care and learning every detail she could find that would help her understand better what his body was going through and anything that might make it easier on him. She is one of the sweetest and strongest women I know. Her book will bless your life just as she and Caleb have blessed mine.
    -Rachel Wallace